Degringolade

Like when I worked at the snack bar, and we sold giant pickles and cup of noodles. Like when I watched Kill Bill 9 times in a row within 1 week. Like when I forgot about my poor little hamster. Like when I drank drinks from the tables of Kilowatt, un-21, on T-bones big birthday. Like when I lost my virginity to an unmentionable alcoholic. Like when I accidently slapped Vanessa during lunch that one day. Like when I threw my brother's hat off of the Santa Monica pier. Like when I screamed to Violet that cold summer night in the central wing. Like when I threw that tantrum during my 3rd birthday party. Like when I fell 8 feet onto my back and never lived to tell about it. Like when I felt up my friend in a very inappropriate manner. Like when I did that over 3 times. Like when I ditched my 5 year old brother, constantly. Like when I drew on the wall in the doctor's office. Like when I spent the weekend in the abandoned porno treehouse by the sewer drain. Like when I wanted to kiss her as she cried in my arms. Like when I made the call, both days after I should have and 5 minutes before I should have. Like when I told my dad that our babysitter hit us with the swing she broke. Like when I tricked my very first best friend into taking his pants off. Like when I just couldn't make it on the drive back from El Cerrito. Like when I digested rocks during the war. LIke when I peed on my brother. Like when I snorted salt off the Carl's Jr. table. Like when I was made to drink charcoal. Like when I waited all night for the end of the night. Like what I told my mom when she asked me. Like when I spent the whole party staring out my window thinking you'd steal my friends. Like when I wet my pants on the merry go round during recess. Like when I'd climb into my brother's bed when I got so scared. Like when Isaac saw me touch Aaron, Aaron saw me touch Paul. Like when thought I might have broken a heart. Like when was too scared to dive from the Commerce pool. Like when I told my mom the name of the nice lady who took me swimming. Like when I punched the cat off of the wall.Like when I humiliated my 2nd grade deaf, best friend. Like when I cried to get what I wanted. Like when I knocked on the hotel room door of the Air Force man. Like when I cried the night of doing blow with my mom. Like when I stole the dreams of those better than me. Like when I wanted to seduce my priest at 14, but didn't, because I was just that uncreative.